January 30th, 2020

January 30th, 2020. Up late tonight with the boy. I must have misjudged the timing on a cup of coffee earlier or something. Dang. But it’s ok. There’s nothing else I’d rather be doing & nowhere else I’d rather be.

January 27th-29th, 2020

January 27th, 2020

January 28th, 2020

January 29th, 2020

January 26th, 2020

January 26th, 2020. Poor Byron 😂 at least he is still allowed on the bed? 🤣

January 25th, 2020

January 25th, 2020. Having a self portrait project & a newborn looks like a lot of tired selfies in bed and saying that’s ok for the day😅

January 24th, 2020

January 24th, 2020. Survived (& mostly thrived through) the first 5 days of Matthias being back to work. So many precious Lionhart cuddles for me throughout the day and I’m still taking things slow around here. Partly because of the exhaustion and partly because I just want to soak up every single moment. Eliot is 19 days old. How? (😭)

January 23rd, 2020

January 23rd, 2020. Mom has been coming over this week from 6-10 in the mornings to snuggle Eliot while I catch a nap. She is the BEST! It has been so wonderful, but I have to say... it doesn’t quite replace sleeping at night 😅 I have never been this tired in my life.

January 22nd, 2020

January 22nd, 2020. walked in from work & got right into bed with his work clothes still on to snuggle Lionhart. I love the dad/son bond.

January 21st, 2020

January 21st, 2020. I can’t believe I get to be his mama.

back to work

January 20th, 2020. Matthias went back to work today so last night was my first “alone” with our little lion. Eliot’s clock has been backwards again for the last couple of nights so I ended up with an hour or two worth of sleep. I rocked & held him all night to try to keep him sleeping in an attempt to turn his internal clock back around.
I. am. So. Thankful. For. My. Mom. She walked through the door around 6am and took over for a few hours so I could rest. We wouldn’t be surviving this transition if it weren’t for our awesome people. I feel well loved in this time.
I tried to go back to something normal today though & I did accomplish a lot. The part of me that hates being vulnerable or in need wants to make a list to prove it. “Look at me, I’m not just healing! I can work. I can do so much!” But I am humbled by how run down I feel tonight. I did too much trying to prove something to myself maybe? It makes me emotional.
Tomorrow, we’re going to stay in bed longer. Tomorrow, I’m going to take a nap.

January 19th, 2020

January 19th, 2020. Matthias goes back to work tomorrow. I’m not ready.

January 18th, 2020

January 18th, 2020. morning & afternoon cuddled in bed & an evening with Ethan & Hannah Joy who brought over champagne (and Buffalo Wild Wings, because they’re Bonins) to celebrate this new season of life with us

January 17th, 2020

January 17th, 2020. first day out for the three of us. and we picked up Byron from the land & took him to his grooming appointment so he’d be better smelling & ready to come home again! so happy to have him home 🐶👨‍👩‍👦

January 16th, 2020

January 16th, 2020. if you need us, you can find us in bed. our usual favorite thing: Matthias in my lap (asking for a head rub, because, of course) & our new favorite thing: our baby in his lap. WE HAVE A BABY, GUYS. we’re all snuggles all the time.

January 15th, 2020

January 15th, 2020. days & nights bleed together and I’m not sure how we’ve had eliot for 10 days now. we love every single thing about our little lion. he is as expressive with his face as I am, but super calm like Matthias. (look at that stank face 😜)

January 13th, 2020

January 13th, 2020. Survived our first night and day without mom. (And we’re exhausted.)

one week with eliot

January 12th, 2020. One week ago, after thirty hours of labor, we met our new best friend. 💙 Mom (Frost) left this afternoon and I cried when she did. It has been the sweetest time ever having her help us transition into parenthood this week. We’re the luckiest kids to have the parents we do. 😭❤️ I hope I can be the same support when our babies are having babies.
We started the Taking Cara Babies sleep course this evening. Fingers crossed it’s as good as we’ve heard! I loved her advice for the first four weeks: just 1) brush your teeth 2) adjust to your new life. That’s all. 😂🤪 one week down of that!

January 11th, 2020

January 11th, 2020. Matthias & those slippers 🤩😂🥰 our apartment is cozied into a really nice spot with warm sunlight (that is especially good in the afternoon) & a neighborhood & pretty trees behind us. I love it so much. so we “left” the apartment for the first time this week to get this right off our back patio. I love our space, I love my boys, I am so grateful for this new season of life.

sleepless

January 10th, 2020. adjusting to the whole sleeping for two hours at a time thing.