I could talk forever about being seen, REALLY seen, and how that’s changed my whole life. but, another time. for now: I think any marriage can work. complete opposites or lovers cut from the same cloth.
anyone can choose to be intentional, and deep, strong friendship bonds can be formed because of it. 🖤

i spent my drive time this afternoon & evening dreaming of what i imagine hanging in our home, & it’s not all perfect, smiley, well lit portraits.

Who could’ve guessed that the “Mr. & Mrs. Cole” I grew up in church with would become my best friends as I entered adulthood & be such an influential part of our life & marriage.

my first true memory of him was when he asked my to dance that night. 

meals are sacred in our family. we share them as often as we can back home, piling as many of us as possible around tables inevitably too small. we just want to be near each other. we want to delight in each other’s presence.

we walked this afternoon in the warm spotty sunlight that comes through the trees here on the Frost property. that’s all I can say for today, really. I didn’t really leave the house or do... well, anything. (and doing things *is* my thing. I like to get up & go.) but not today. I’m tired in my bones

I wasn’t prepared for this. we were going to drink coffee & talk. death. that wasn’t going to be a part of this trip. I... I don’t know what to say. 

I wish he never had to leave. for years I would throw my arms around his neck every morning, “no, don’t go” in dramatic fashion with exaggerated sadness expressed in my brows. he’d agree, saying yes, this would be the day he would finally give up all responsibility and stay in bed with me forever. but inevitably, he’d be out to door each morning to do what he must.

i’m glad i didn’t wait for life to be easier or settled to get up and do the damn work. i have the most amazing community of people to work alongside & their support, their dreams & the hard work they all put in fuels me and inspires me daily.

I bet we’ll hang on to our sunday nap tradition.

why not throw a party? why not make things beautiful? Matthias & I do this anyway as often as we can for little life things, why in my head was I making an exception in my head for babies? today wasn’t just about Ollie, it was coming together and celebrating the gift of a family, the gift of love.
how lucky we are.