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mom always said, “if you need something done, ask a busy person.” today proves why 😉 we had the opportunity to do whatever we wanted all day. a rare occasion! we could have fit into our schedule-of-nothingness some time for a beautiful portrait with gorgeous golden light... insteadddd, we never got out of our pajamas. (we have no regrets.)
two tiny moments watching the documentary “American Gospel” together this evening.
also... 6 Saturday’s until we have a baby?
Not a lot to say this evening, so here’s a reminder to read The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People when you have the chance. And The Imagineering Story is worth your time if you’re spending your weekend on Disney+!
Stayed downtown again in a hotel after birthing class last night since it makes his commute easier the morning after our late night out. And I stuck around long enough this morning for us to have an early lunch together. Sharing food may be my favorite part of being a wife... and his least favorite part about being a husband?🤪 Pappasitos portions are huge though so we still left with a to-go box 😂 (soaking up every. last. second of it being *just us*) ❤️
Editing!!!! So! Much! Editingggg! (Not on this series... I use WiFi from my camera & just send them to my phone and do phone edits for our self portraits.) Oh my goodness, I am finishing the last galleries of the year & I’m so excitedddd to get them to their couples! So many beautiful photos & memories!!! Being a small part of others lives while helping them document important days is a great honor. Sometimes I have taken for granted that my career has been exactly what I dreamed of it being when I was a teenager, but I am very aware right now & man, I treasure all the sweet & happiest seasons I’ve gotten to experience alongside happy couples ❤️ and I’m grateful that my skill has been so perfectly sweet for our personal life & memories. If you’ve been considering getting a camera, just DO it. And if you can’t afford a camera, chances are you have a pretty amazing camera on your phone. Use the tools you have! 💕🥰
honestly, we forgot about our photo for today until this exact moment. seemed like a good day for an iPhone selfie instead of an intentional portrait 😂 he’s already tucked into bed and yes, he’s sleeping IN his big red robe. he says it makes it easier to get out of bed in the morning. 😂 we’ve been sleeping with the window open and OH myyyy these temps are tittyfreezing cold, as my mom is so fond of saying. this week is crunch week for me finishing allllll the beautiful galleries and getting them sent off and then I’m done - like done, done - with photography work for 2019. it’s time to start nesting. that’ll happen when we’re actually in our apartment though 😂 move in date is next friday.
50 days of self portraits down. Dang. I think it’s safe to say I’ve taken more than the last round. That was 6 years ago now; it’s much more fun with a partner. Also, it’s just an estimated due date, but today we’re 50 days out from having our firstborn son. What is this magic. 😭❤️
I want to say I’m at the point in pregnancy where nothing fits or is cute, but actually, I just need to do my laundry... ugh. Wearing clothes is entirely necessary and feeling cute is necessary for my own sanity, but somehow laundry always falls so so so low on my priority list. I’m guilty of going & buying whole new outfits instead of doing a load.
Matthias pointed across the parking lot, “let’s drive over there with the pretty orange trees, we’ll get our photo before the sun is gone.” And so we did that instead of going straight into the H-E-B to buy things for dinner. (I’m so glad my camera was in the car with us.) He doesn’t actually care about these portraits the same way I do. It’s just that photos aren’t his thing. But he knows how happy the two minutes we take for this daily makes me and he tries to be an active participant, instead of just letting me lead every single day. It’s something small he can do with me that makes my heart lighter. He’s a great friend & incredible partner.
We are cooking a tomahawk steak right now. He watched two YouTube videos of guys cooking them perfectly medium rare. Hopefully 1) it’s delicious 2) he doesn’t take two hours to cook it like the guys I was hearing in those videos. We’ll see... he’s laughing at me for making myself a sandwich while he’s prepping this massive steak, but a pregnant girl has got to eat.
Friday night family dinner at the Bonin’s featuring some angry orchard ciders behind us. 😂 today we signed our lease on our next apartment, yay! I’m dreaming of our Christmas tree already! Earlier this year my amazing grandparents gifted us the most beautiful ornaments & I cannot wait to have them up! It’s basically Christmas! And that means it’s basically baby time! This is all flying by! Someone remind me that I felt this way when I’m in the last few days and feel like this pregnancy has taken forever 😂
i’m glad i didn’t wait for life to be easier or settled to get up and do the damn work. i have the most amazing community of people to work alongside & their support, their dreams & the hard work they all put in fuels me and inspires me daily.
Read moreWe always early vote, but missed it this time... so tonight we stood in line for TWO H O U R S to vote, and at the very end were told we were at the wrong place. 🥴 and it was 8:30 by that point. Sooo... yeah. We didn’t vote today. And then I realized I’ve had my pants on backwards all day. You can’t tell, but they’re still backwards here. Oh well. At least we had a nice date, some really good laughs, and were home by 10pm. And does anything say romance like a photo in a parking lot with your to-go box on your car behind you?
(Fingers crossed Texas doesn’t get a state income tax or I’m going to be on the hook for not looking up the proper polling location 😳🤪)
a favorite from reading today: “we see the world, not as it is, but as we are...”
I bet we’ll hang on to our sunday nap tradition.
Read morewhy not throw a party? why not make things beautiful? Matthias & I do this anyway as often as we can for little life things, why in my head was I making an exception in my head for babies? today wasn’t just about Ollie, it was coming together and celebrating the gift of a family, the gift of love.
how lucky we are.
Someday, soon, it won’t be 10pm all the time.
Over the summer I had talked about using my bump as part of a costume this year, but here we are on Halloween & it hadn’t crossed my mind again until like... this exact moment.
We celebrated our dear friend Bailey’s birthday this evening & there was wine & beer & pizza & cake like all our birthdays in the last few years, but there were also children. We’re... big people with tiny people at events now.... not siblings or other people’s kids. *Our* kids. (Well, our friends kids. You know what I mean.) THAT feels like adulthood. That & the fact that like 4 people had left the party before 8pm. I don’t know what I expected entering the season of life with our friends growing their families, but it’s happy & fulfilling. And driving home right now with Matthias beside me & Eliot fluttering around in my womb makes me happy sigh. If I ever thought getting older was going to be lame, I was wrong.
This afternoon I walked the place I think is going to be our next home. Briefly I got to dream of our home birth and what is next for us. One step at a time.
tired. so. tired. hurry up, wait. “it’s always 10pm” he said tonight. it does feel that way. at least right now. we’re worn out. we wouldn’t change anything about where God has us in this season, but I will cry about it sometimes, like tonight. and that’s okay, I will be okay with that. it won’t always be like this.
I took our photo selfie style in the mirror tonight with Matthias petting Byron (who you can barely see) in the background. real. life. and thats what I’ve been wanting to capture with these.
right after taking the photo, I laid down to just chat with him. it’s nice to have someone to reliably confide in. and I realized in that moment laying with him, *that* was our moment today. that should be our photo. right there. as we were. exhausted beyond exhaustion, together. cozy. I am so glad my camera was already out. I’m so grateful for the gift of this moment documented forever.
It doesn’t matter what time we start our mornings, there just doesn’t seem to be enough time in the day for all we want & need to do! I hope that continues to motivate & excite us. There is so much life to be lived. So much to talk about. So much to accomplish. So many places to still see. A son to still meet. Ah. I’m so grateful for these days, crawling into bed exhausted, looking forward to the next to do it again. There have been seasons in life when that hasn’t been the case. When sleep was what I looked forward to because I lacked meaning. (+ depression adds another layer to this. If you’re dealing with it, find someone to talk to 🖤) Without the grounding of & direction from true, deeply rooted meaning & purpose, life can be unbearably hard. It doesn’t have to be that way though. There is more for each of us than grinding at work and living for the weekend. Books have played a major role in shaping my outlook on life and helping me out of my ruts. 😭🖤 I have recommendations if you are looking for places to start in your search for meaning.
i spent my drive time this afternoon & evening dreaming of what i imagine hanging in our home, & it’s not all perfect, smiley, well lit portraits.
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