October 25th, 2019

✨ two degrees done (both by him!), 6 months of vacationing overseas completed, our own little person growing, add to that: a full FOUR YEARS MARRIED ✨

happy anniversary, love 🖤

Happy

Wednesday nights are family dinners at the Frost family home. Unfortunately, tonight Matthias missed the fun & chaos of the full table & conversations & babies & all the good things that happen when you get people you love into a room and around food. He’s working so hard on his dream & it makes the late nights worth it, but it’s still sad when he comes home late.

It was really nice to have some time talking with his parents tonight when he finally made it to their place & ate his dinner at nearly 9pm. This was a moment we were laughing about our budgeting habits with his mama. 🙈 It makes me so happy to have captured a genuinely sweet moment together after two long days apart.

BabIes & Stuff

Hannah Joy made me a baby registry today. I’ve been putting it off... and since we’re getting so close, it just needed to be done. (How am I 30 weeks pregnant??) Baby registries are overwhelming and complicated and... there is just *so* much stuff for babies. When I got to her home this evening and scrolled through it though, it made me laugh & nearly cry. It hit me again. We’re having a baby. A tiny person that is from Matthias and me. Our person. And he’s going to be so little and squishy and, oh my gosh, he *is* going to need stuff. Even if it’s just basics like diapers and some clothes. THANK GOD for sisters who make baby registries for the procrastinators.

And I finished Jenna Kutchers Pinterest Lab today. Dang, that girl can put out SO much content. She’s impressive. I’m inspired by her and so many other women who work their butts off from home to support their families. I have LOVED my career as a wedding photographer, but I am thrilled to be slowing that down for working from my laptop so I can do less travel, have more weekends at home, and just be present for motherhood in the way I picture will work for us & all that entails.

Birthing Class

Accurate photo of our faces on Monday nights when we watch births with our Bradley method birthing class peers. Ouch. (What am I even doing with my hand? That wasn’t on purpose. Making a fist is a part of my tensing habit I guess?🤣)

I’ve attended many births, but man, nothing is graphic like a close up of a vagina on a large screen tv.

October 20th, 2019

intentional day of rest. (& laughing at Matthias’ shirt. 🤣 mr. can’t-stay-up-past-midnight)

Last Wedding

home just after midnight after my last wedding of 2019.

I didn’t know how I would feel after this last wedding. pregnancy-tired is it’s own thing. and then there is wedding-tired... but it’s 00:15 & I am not physically miserable. in fact, I feel great. cheers to that! (we’ll see what tomorrow has to say about this whole shooting-for-eight-hours-at-30-weeks-pregnant...)
Matthias kindly carries my heavy pelican case for me after long days. so even though he was asleep when I made it home, he came out to lug my equipment in. very thankful for that.

Head Rubs

can it count as a self portrait if there is so little of me in the photo? I’m telling myself so... I mean, yesterday’s photo was just our hands. so this is sort of that again. just with a whole lot more of Matthias. 😉
he often plops a pillow in my lap & lays on me for head rubs. sometimes just for the comfort of touch. sometimes for an achy head after a long day. sometimes to talk with my undivided attention. sometimes to fall asleep, like he is now, while I do other things on my phone.
I’ll always treasure the many days we’ve had together with four easily available hands to love & serve each other with. I’m also excited about having them more full, even as inaccessible as that may make them, as we have babies. maybe we won’t get as much opportunity for head rubs, but trading that for baby snuggles seems fair.

October 17th, 2019

“and we'll collect the moments one by one

I guess that's how the future's done.” - feist

🖤

edited to add: a friend pointed out the resemblance to the cathedral.

I’ve melted into the floor.

October 16th, 2019

post family dinner portrait with ambient light from the front porch & Matthias’ favorite magnolia tree, planted by his big brother when they were children.

today was really good. nothing extraordinary on the schedule or anything like that, but Matthias & I actually spent time together nuzzled up talking before he went to work and that really started my day off so nicely. typically, because he’s up so early, we don’t have time to enjoy our mornings together, but he stayed a bit later & we spent at least half an hour just enjoying each other’s company before he was out the door around 6:30 or whatever it was this morning. a rare little perfect memory I won’t soon forget.
I also got to see our darling son on an ultrasound again today. he’s perfect! duh. measuring 30 weeks & not breech like he was when we checked last time. and now we’re at the point in pregnancy where I get to see my amazing midwife every other week & I love her dearly, so I’m excited about that.
there were other things about today that were good for my heart... like this dreamy weather & connecting with some dear friends after what’s been far too long apart.
and I’m hopeful. and grateful. I have had some dark days in the last 7 weeks, but today wasn’t one of them. I am excited about where we are in this precious, quickly passing season of life, & I’m thrilled about what lies ahead with parenthood, celebrating year four of marriage, my business, and everything Matthias is working towards right now. 💕

Iridescent Opal Polymer Clay Earrings

the most lovely pair of handmade clay earrings by a texas artist

handmade by ashton

I wanted to order nearly everything she creates, but I landed on “the nat” in opal

the set has the most beautiful iridescent flecks of gold, white, tiny bits of blues & blush hues. it is is very subtle in it’s color & bold in it’s styling.

October 15th, 2019

tired in all of the ways. tired enough to be totally okay with this being our self portrait for today. because, real life. you know what I’m learning? it’s hard to be thoroughly grateful AND anxious at the same time. that’s pretty cool. seeking out/working on gratefulness every day.

October 14th, 2019

Monday’s we have Bradley method birthing classes in Houston & we typically grab a hotel to make the night easier. I say typically, but we’ve missed like half the classes so far, soooo... (life, man...) Instead of me driving down to meet Matthias right before class (since it’s near his work), & then driving both our cars at 9pm the hour+ ish back home, JUST for him to turn around to drive back to Houston at 5:30am, having a hotel gives us freedom to r e s t before and after it. 😭💕

we actually had time to sit and breathe, even had dinner and talked for while this afternoon beforehand. Our intention was to get an after dinner portrait, but we forgot the camera & said we’d do it later. And then later turned into 10pm. (to be fair, we didn’t make it back until 9:30 after class anyway.)

When he reminded me we should take it, I recommended we just get it right here. “Is it because you don’t want to put pants back on?” ... yes. Yes, it is.

October 13th, 2019

this is our 22nd day in a row doing self portraits. proud of ourselves for not missing any days! 😂💕 it’s been easier than I anticipated. I’m learning so much about my cameras self-portrait capabilities! glad to be doing this before our little love makes it into the world.

unrelated: I don’t understand why people blur out license plate numbers on the internet. aren’t they public information that can be easily seen when you’re driving around. what am I missing?🤔

October 12th, 2019

brunch, friends, family, champagne (including alcohol-removed champagne), & perfect weather.