I want to say I’m at the point in pregnancy where nothing fits or is cute, but actually, I just need to do my laundry... ugh. Wearing clothes is entirely necessary and feeling cute is necessary for my own sanity, but somehow laundry always falls so so so low on my priority list. I’m guilty of going & buying whole new outfits instead of doing a load.
November 9th, 2019
Matthias pointed across the parking lot, “let’s drive over there with the pretty orange trees, we’ll get our photo before the sun is gone.” And so we did that instead of going straight into the H-E-B to buy things for dinner. (I’m so glad my camera was in the car with us.) He doesn’t actually care about these portraits the same way I do. It’s just that photos aren’t his thing. But he knows how happy the two minutes we take for this daily makes me and he tries to be an active participant, instead of just letting me lead every single day. It’s something small he can do with me that makes my heart lighter. He’s a great friend & incredible partner.
We are cooking a tomahawk steak right now. He watched two YouTube videos of guys cooking them perfectly medium rare. Hopefully 1) it’s delicious 2) he doesn’t take two hours to cook it like the guys I was hearing in those videos. We’ll see... he’s laughing at me for making myself a sandwich while he’s prepping this massive steak, but a pregnant girl has got to eat.
November 8th, 2019
Friday night family dinner at the Bonin’s featuring some angry orchard ciders behind us. 😂 today we signed our lease on our next apartment, yay! I’m dreaming of our Christmas tree already! Earlier this year my amazing grandparents gifted us the most beautiful ornaments & I cannot wait to have them up! It’s basically Christmas! And that means it’s basically baby time! This is all flying by! Someone remind me that I felt this way when I’m in the last few days and feel like this pregnancy has taken forever 😂
One Year
i’m glad i didn’t wait for life to be easier or settled to get up and do the damn work. i have the most amazing community of people to work alongside & their support, their dreams & the hard work they all put in fuels me and inspires me daily.
Read moreAdulting Fails
We always early vote, but missed it this time... so tonight we stood in line for TWO H O U R S to vote, and at the very end were told we were at the wrong place. 🥴 and it was 8:30 by that point. Sooo... yeah. We didn’t vote today. And then I realized I’ve had my pants on backwards all day. You can’t tell, but they’re still backwards here. Oh well. At least we had a nice date, some really good laughs, and were home by 10pm. And does anything say romance like a photo in a parking lot with your to-go box on your car behind you?
(Fingers crossed Texas doesn’t get a state income tax or I’m going to be on the hook for not looking up the proper polling location 😳🤪)
November 4th, 2019
a favorite from reading today: “we see the world, not as it is, but as we are...”
Pre-baby Sundays
I bet we’ll hang on to our sunday nap tradition.
Read moreOllie's Birthday
why not throw a party? why not make things beautiful? Matthias & I do this anyway as often as we can for little life things, why in my head was I making an exception in my head for babies? today wasn’t just about Ollie, it was coming together and celebrating the gift of a family, the gift of love.
how lucky we are.
November 1st, 2019
Someday, soon, it won’t be 10pm all the time.
Adult Halloween
Over the summer I had talked about using my bump as part of a costume this year, but here we are on Halloween & it hadn’t crossed my mind again until like... this exact moment.
We celebrated our dear friend Bailey’s birthday this evening & there was wine & beer & pizza & cake like all our birthdays in the last few years, but there were also children. We’re... big people with tiny people at events now.... not siblings or other people’s kids. *Our* kids. (Well, our friends kids. You know what I mean.) THAT feels like adulthood. That & the fact that like 4 people had left the party before 8pm. I don’t know what I expected entering the season of life with our friends growing their families, but it’s happy & fulfilling. And driving home right now with Matthias beside me & Eliot fluttering around in my womb makes me happy sigh. If I ever thought getting older was going to be lame, I was wrong.
October 30th, 2019
This afternoon I walked the place I think is going to be our next home. Briefly I got to dream of our home birth and what is next for us. One step at a time.
Hurry up, wait
tired. so. tired. hurry up, wait. “it’s always 10pm” he said tonight. it does feel that way. at least right now. we’re worn out. we wouldn’t change anything about where God has us in this season, but I will cry about it sometimes, like tonight. and that’s okay, I will be okay with that. it won’t always be like this.
I took our photo selfie style in the mirror tonight with Matthias petting Byron (who you can barely see) in the background. real. life. and thats what I’ve been wanting to capture with these.
right after taking the photo, I laid down to just chat with him. it’s nice to have someone to reliably confide in. and I realized in that moment laying with him, *that* was our moment today. that should be our photo. right there. as we were. exhausted beyond exhaustion, together. cozy. I am so glad my camera was already out. I’m so grateful for the gift of this moment documented forever.
A reason to get up
It doesn’t matter what time we start our mornings, there just doesn’t seem to be enough time in the day for all we want & need to do! I hope that continues to motivate & excite us. There is so much life to be lived. So much to talk about. So much to accomplish. So many places to still see. A son to still meet. Ah. I’m so grateful for these days, crawling into bed exhausted, looking forward to the next to do it again. There have been seasons in life when that hasn’t been the case. When sleep was what I looked forward to because I lacked meaning. (+ depression adds another layer to this. If you’re dealing with it, find someone to talk to 🖤) Without the grounding of & direction from true, deeply rooted meaning & purpose, life can be unbearably hard. It doesn’t have to be that way though. There is more for each of us than grinding at work and living for the weekend. Books have played a major role in shaping my outlook on life and helping me out of my ruts. 😭🖤 I have recommendations if you are looking for places to start in your search for meaning.
35 Days of Portraits
i spent my drive time this afternoon & evening dreaming of what i imagine hanging in our home, & it’s not all perfect, smiley, well lit portraits.
Read more"Framily"
Who could’ve guessed that the “Mr. & Mrs. Cole” I grew up in church with would become my best friends as I entered adulthood & be such an influential part of our life & marriage.
Read moreOctober 25th, 2019
✨ two degrees done (both by him!), 6 months of vacationing overseas completed, our own little person growing, add to that: a full FOUR YEARS MARRIED ✨
happy anniversary, love 🖤
Anniversary Eve
my first true memory of him was when he asked my to dance that night.
Read moreTaking Time
not everyone is made to work for themselves, but some are. the ones who want freedom & will do the work to earn it, the ones who have fear, but choose to fight it anyway so they can have something better than they have right now.
Read moreHappy
Wednesday nights are family dinners at the Frost family home. Unfortunately, tonight Matthias missed the fun & chaos of the full table & conversations & babies & all the good things that happen when you get people you love into a room and around food. He’s working so hard on his dream & it makes the late nights worth it, but it’s still sad when he comes home late.
It was really nice to have some time talking with his parents tonight when he finally made it to their place & ate his dinner at nearly 9pm. This was a moment we were laughing about our budgeting habits with his mama. 🙈 It makes me so happy to have captured a genuinely sweet moment together after two long days apart.
BabIes & Stuff
Hannah Joy made me a baby registry today. I’ve been putting it off... and since we’re getting so close, it just needed to be done. (How am I 30 weeks pregnant??) Baby registries are overwhelming and complicated and... there is just *so* much stuff for babies. When I got to her home this evening and scrolled through it though, it made me laugh & nearly cry. It hit me again. We’re having a baby. A tiny person that is from Matthias and me. Our person. And he’s going to be so little and squishy and, oh my gosh, he *is* going to need stuff. Even if it’s just basics like diapers and some clothes. THANK GOD for sisters who make baby registries for the procrastinators.
And I finished Jenna Kutchers Pinterest Lab today. Dang, that girl can put out SO much content. She’s impressive. I’m inspired by her and so many other women who work their butts off from home to support their families. I have LOVED my career as a wedding photographer, but I am thrilled to be slowing that down for working from my laptop so I can do less travel, have more weekends at home, and just be present for motherhood in the way I picture will work for us & all that entails.
