It’s not even 11pm and I *want* to get up and work on things because I’m dreaming big and I’m excited right now. But I also feel like I need to stay in bed and… well, just be horizontal. I am so tired these days. I am practicing stopping to think and say out loud grateful thoughts when I’m feeling especially unraveled.. I am so blessed to be in this season right now. I don’t want to rush it. But I also want to breathe. And lay on my back. And be able to bend in half. Stuff like that.

Eliot was up at 7:30 because he went down at 6:30 last night. He must be growing! (That is officially the most mom thing I have ever said.) I napped in the afternoon with him but I woke up feeling worse than before. I honestly was so uncomfortable and wanted to be alone and cry. The end of pregnancy makes me weepy. Matthias took Eliot out for an hour and a half and let me be home alone after he was done with work. I watched some videos about blogs, took these photos, opened the Jenna Kutcher Pinterest lab course again, and started on our flatbread pizza dinner with ingredients we had on hand. I’ve been watching so many cooking shows recently. (December off has allowed for this luxury…) My favorites are “Oh Cook” with James May, Chopped (Matthias introduced me to it), and Keep Calm and Cook On. The last is all about making versatile recipes with what you have in your house. It’s exactly what I needed! I can be so wasteful and I want to learn how not to be. I have already learned so much from it.