Two months

Two months today. Two months of having Eliot Lionhart earth-side. Two months of arms & hands being constantly full. Two months of not sleeping very often. Two months of adjusting to this new role as mama, the life-giver he trusts for everything. Two months of the sweetest mornings I never knew to dream of & look forward to. I love these days with a newborn. I’m going to recreate the photo with Eliot on my hip at month one, but didn’t get to it today. so that’ll be tomorrow’s photo.

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Brunchin’

Brunch then lunch with some of my faves. (we were together so long we got hungry again😂) New traditions & some old ones. I was in the middle of bleaching & coloring my hair this morning and then picked back up this afternoon when we were nearing the end of lunch. I had just washed my hair out when I realized the photo of the day should be with them & they volunteered to put towels on their heads to match me. 😂 true friends 🙌🏼

Biscuits

Matthias spent his morning working before joining me at the Cole’s for brunch. Mark was on a quest to make the worlds yummiest breakfast sandwich and I made biscuits from scratch for the first time. The sandwich was so dang good & the biscuits were actually amazing & really easy to prepare. Next time I want to use salted butter in the recipe though.

February 27th, 2020

Just a casual mom enjoying a water while she makes a midnight tea. Typical, right? 😂 I feel cute usually during the day. I always put on makeup & dress well (for my taste) and the house is kept up & looks beautiful for the many hours I spend here with my sweet newborn. So why do I wait so often until my face is washed & we’re cuddled in robes & there’s no pretty warm light in our apartment to get the daily portrait? I’m really not sure. Tonight it didn’t even cross my mind until after both Matthias & Eliot were asleep. I thought after 20 days a habit was supposed to be formed? 158 days into this and still trying to remember😂🤭 For the next week I’ll try really really hard to get daytime photos. Hold me to that, please.

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February 26th, 2020

I feel like I was made to be a mama. This is the life I wanted. 😭❤️ Matthias is sick today & stayed home from work. Extra Ningxia, extra thieves, and lots of sleeping. He missed family dinner, but mom Frost sent home some of the yumminess for him so if he feels better tomorrow he’ll have a homemade lunch. But if he has to skip work tomorrow again and doesn’t have his appetite back... I’m definitely eating those leftovers. 😳

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11pm alarm

I pulled up the covers around 8:45 tonight to snuggle with Lionhart while he nursed. It was supposed to be a short cuddle so I could wrap up my evening routines after. I didn’t expect to fall asleep, but when I realized it was happening I was already too far gone. 🤣😳 I had Matthias set an alarm for me and I dragged myself out of bed at 11pm to finish my night time routines. Ugh. H A R D. I really, really would’ve preferred at the time to stay in bed, but I’m glad I made myself get up. I pulled out my camera first to get this exhausted portrait because I am not going to let some sleepiness break our habit of daily photos & then washed my face & completed my other night time traditions. I am going to sleep so much more soundly with my face washed & knowing I didn’t slack on the responsibilities I’ve assigned to myself. One little thing at a time. One good decision at a time. Goodnight, world 🙌🏼

question: black & white or color?

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sweat

Eliot is 7 weeks old and I’m starting to add some workouts into my routine. It’s never been my “thing” and I highly doubt it ever will be, but I want to add some reasonable habits that I’ll be able to keep up for my health. Today I started the post-pregnancy BBG program on the very expensive Sweat app I’ve been paying for & have not used for two years 😂

Sea bugs

February 22nd, 2020. Bonin family dinner was moved to tonight so Sam & Annalise would be here for it and we celebrated dad’s birthday a bit late and Ethan’s birthday a bit early with crawfish. YUMMMM. I am all about eating the sea bugs 🙌🏼 it’s nasty when I think about it, but my tastebuds don’t think 😜

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POTATOES & feb 19th

February 20th, 2020. JJ heller is playing on my phone & that is filling our dark room with sweet sounds. Matthias is sleeping (mostly? he has been so still for a while now) and Eliot is sucking so very hard on a pacifier- his newest skill and favorite thing besides just nursing endlessly. We had Ethan, Hannah Joy, Ollie, Grey, Sydnie, & Theo over dinner. Hannah Joy and I made a potato soup together. It only took 400 hours. I wanted to triple the recipe so I could send home so much yumminess with each sister, but we got to the end of the night and I realized I had nothing appropriate to send soup in... so I currently have a LOT of soup in my house. And still nothing appropriate to store it in... Also, feeling guilt for not writing anything for yesterday. What a weird thing to feel guilt about... I am so very happy with as much as I have gotten down these last 151 days. (Thank you, Sarah, for being my “button” Wednesday!)

Robes

Pretty sure I’m the only one online posting robe photos. 😅 Yikes. But hey, these self portraits are supposed to be real life so here’s some more real life. We’re teaching him early our love of robes. They’re SO COMFY. You can be like naked AND wrapped up at the same time. It’s like wearing a big blanket. Your very own blanket 😂Win win win. I can totally picture Eliot as a little boy on a Saturday morning making waffles with Matthias in the matching robes I will inevitably buy them.

Edelweiss

Trying too hard for a cute photo and totally missed. Caption that baby face, OMG😂 

Eliot is 6 weeks today and he smiles all. the. time. But apparently not for self portraits 😜We found his song this week: Edelweiss. We’ve been playing the JJ Heller version on repeat. And today we made time for the Sound of Music. I haven’t watched it in... like 15 years? 😳 Oh my, Julie Andrews is SO BEAUTIFUL. Can I be her when I grow up?

February 15th, 2020

saturday night. Took this with my iPhone because we were too ready to crawl into bed to grab my “real” camera. Sydnie & Grey moved into their new place today. Lily celebrated her 18th birthday with a huge party. We had crawfish for the first time this season.

Valentines day

February 14th, 2020. Valentine’s Day isn’t really our thing, but we had a yummy dinner with dear friends & it wasn’t even ruined by being ignored entirely by our waitress. 😂 it’s crazy to me that this time last year I wasn’t even pregnant & here we our now doing real life with our baby lion. 😭❤️ this is a good season.

144 days

February 13th, 2020. 144 days of self portraits. When we started, I definitely didn’t know we’d still be doing this in February. The only day we’ve missed taking time for a photo was the day we had Eliot. (thankfully we have lots of pictures from Kate that day😘❤️) Things I didn’t know going into this:
1️⃣ how many photos we’d take in beds: hotel beds, at his parents, at my parents, in our apartment, the ranch, etc. so many times we’ve gotten to the end of a day and realize we still need to grab a picture for the day. lots more of that than I could have imagined.
2️⃣ how exciting this would still be to me after this long. I love these portraits & I haven’t started printing them yet, but I want to start & hang our favorites throughout our home.
3️⃣ how much discipline it takes to “just take a photo”... oh my goodness. 🙈 it’s harder than it seems keeping this up. (BUT worth it!!) 4️⃣ that the project would fuel my journaling. I’ve spent more time with pen & paper than I would have if I wasn’t doing this.

February 10th, 2020

February 10th, 2020. Sitting in the mostly-dark in bed with Eliot in my lap & Matthias sleeping beside me. The desert mist light is on & it’s diffusing Dream Catcher while we snuggle.
For weeks now I haven’t been able to stop thinking about the fact that life is made up of tiny moments & small decisions that add up. Life happens in minutes, so how I’m spending my minutes matters. It’s terrifying and empowering. 5 minutes of doing the right thing at a time. That’s doable.