one day at a time

February 25th, 2021. Matthias invited me to join him for lunch today, but I had to turn down the sweet offer because leaving our home is just too much to do alone with the two babies— at least today. One day at a time, one day at a time.

I was still mostly on bedrest at two weeks postpartum with Eliot and that’s just not possible this time around, but if I can stay home, that’s at least something. I remember at 19 (and in other years, but for some reason 19 really stands out) I couldn’t stay home, I was always itching to be out & about. Somewhere in the past few years that all changed. I think when I married Matthias— now home is my favorite place in the world, especially when I have all my people here🥰

Having two

Mom is coming over this week to help out a few hours a day. Matthias is back to work... like for real. He worked last week, but only a handful of hours a day and from home. So this is different.

Adjusting to two is different than adjusting to one. Is that so obvious that I sound silly for saying it out loud?

Having Eliot was an emotional adjustment (in very happy ways, thankfully). It took time to settle into becoming a mother...

There were definitely physical changes... I mean, we added a whole new person into our life and routines, so, of course. But it felt more spiritually + emotionally shifting than physical adding our firstborn.

Adding Emerson in... well, I’m already a mama. I knew the joy that was coming. It’s been much more of a physical adjustment this time. Not because Emerson is a different newborn, but because we have a 13 month old in the mix. I’m chasing a toddler all day and also up all night. (Ok, not all night... but still.) I’m tired, I’m happy.

some moments that make me happy:

Comfy

Mom Frost has been with us since very early Tuesday morning right after Emerson arrived. She spent the first week with us after Eliot’s birth and now Emerson’s... and I don’t know how we’d manage without her. She keeps the household running while we spend lots of time in bed just snuggling, bonding, healing.